Monday, October 24, 2011
Monday, October 17, 2011
well....
I've been kind of mad at God lately... and afraid to say that out loud to anyone not knowing if that was an acceptable thing to say. I've been bitter for having the same struggles that get me down over and over again, when I wish he didn't make me that way or atleast wish that he could change those things about me. Last night at dinner I was talking to a friend about it, and she reminded me that we're in a relationship with God. That means talking about the things that are bothering us. So I'm mad? Tell Him! Maybe it's ok to have an angry conversation with God (plug for the following book, angry conversations with God that I mayyyy have just bought!). And I did.... I've done a lot of praying today. Just about everything that's been weighing on me and why I don't understand it. I still don't have those answers but I know I need to be spending a lot more time reading my Bible and praying. This afternoon, I turned on the radio and the following four songs played in succession. I really listened to the words and couldn't help think God perfectly picked those songs for me to hear right then. If you wanna hear them too (they are excellent), click on the title to go to a youtube video.
When hardship comes to prey on hopes
And troubles seem to linger on
When death rolls on taking ones we love
You are the hope that keeps us on
When all this seems the battles lost
And troubles seem to linger on
When death rolls on taking ones we love
You are the hope that keeps us on
When all this seems the battles lost
And such disease is spreading on
When life grows dark and our lips are parched
You are the hope that we sing of
When death is past and sins are gone
Alas forgiveness here is won
All daughters and sons we will stand as one
We're safe at last in the Father's love
When life grows dark and our lips are parched
You are the hope that we sing of
When death is past and sins are gone
Alas forgiveness here is won
All daughters and sons we will stand as one
We're safe at last in the Father's love
Alleluia, Thine the glory
Alleluia, Amen
Alleluia, Thine the glory
Revive us again
Alleluia, Amen
Alleluia, Thine the glory
Revive us again
Waiting for the sunrise
Waiting for the day
Waiting for a sign
That I’m where you want me to be
You know my heart is heavy
And the hurt is deep
But when I feel like giving up
You’re reminding me
That we all fall down sometimes
But when I hit the ground
You lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I’m letting go
You lift me up when I can’t see
Your heart is all that I need
Your love carries me so I’m letting go
I know I’m not perfect
I know I make mistakes
I know that I have let you down
But you love me the same
And when I’m surrounded
When I lose my way
When I’m crying out and falling down
You are here
I can see the dawn is breaking
I am feeling overtaken with your love
I don’t know what I can offer
In this moment I surrender to your love
How can you move when they’re weighing you down
What can you do when you’re tied to the ground, yeah
You carry your burdens, heavy like gravity
Just let them go now, there’s freedom in release
You can’t run when you’re holding suitcases
It’s a new day throw away your mistakes and open up your heart
Lay down your guard, you don’t have to be afraid
Just breathe, your load can be lifted
There’s a better way when you know you’re forgiven
Open up your heart, lay down your guard
You don’t have to be afraid
Can you imagine what it’s like to be free
Well, send those bags packing, they’re not what you need
Abandon your troubles on the side of the street
Just let them go now, believe me
There’s nothing hold you back now, just run
What can you do when you’re tied to the ground, yeah
You carry your burdens, heavy like gravity
Just let them go now, there’s freedom in release
You can’t run when you’re holding suitcases
It’s a new day throw away your mistakes and open up your heart
Lay down your guard, you don’t have to be afraid
Just breathe, your load can be lifted
There’s a better way when you know you’re forgiven
Open up your heart, lay down your guard
You don’t have to be afraid
Can you imagine what it’s like to be free
Well, send those bags packing, they’re not what you need
Abandon your troubles on the side of the street
Just let them go now, believe me
There’s nothing hold you back now, just run
Sometimes it feels like I'm watching from the outside
Sometimes it feels like I'm breathing but am I alive
I will keep searching for answers that aren't here to find
All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong
So when the walls come falling down on me
And when I'm lost in the current of a raging sea
I have this blessed assurance holding me.
When the earth shakes I wanna be found in You
When the lights fade I wanna be found in You
Sometimes it feels like I'm breathing but am I alive
I will keep searching for answers that aren't here to find
All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong
So when the walls come falling down on me
And when I'm lost in the current of a raging sea
I have this blessed assurance holding me.
When the earth shakes I wanna be found in You
When the lights fade I wanna be found in You
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