Hi! Remember me? I've been pretty awful with this thing for awhile now. Maybe I'll try and be better. Update on life, just applied to 17 pediatric residency programs last week, got my first interview offer this AM, now just sitting back and waiting for more to see where I'll end up! It's scary, but also super exciting. Besides Austin, TX all of the places are in the southeast so hopefully I can keep from getting too far away. Right now I'm doing a month rotation in the pediatric ward which for the most part has been lovely. I just love the kiddies. I have 1.5 weeks there before I move onto something else.

One thing I've been convicted about recently is loving people. Totally not a new concept or a thing I've just realized I have a problem doing. Instead it was just shown to me in a new light. At community group a few weeks ago the topic of heaven was brought up. Something that really isn't talked about much at all, which is crazy. We don't know much about the details, but hello it's heaven! Perfection! All the troubles that we deal with now, gone. Worshipping Christ in person. Kind of scary to think about being in His presence? Read Revelation 4 and 5, one of my favorite parts of the Bible. So heaven=awesome. And as Christians we shall be there for eternity. Imagine eternity as a never ending line. And our life on Earth? One teeny tiny dot located on that line. So in a million billion years, think I'm going to look back and say, 'man. I'm glad I made a big deal out of the time that person hurt my feelings. Really glad I was passive aggressive and wouldn't talk to them, glad I made them feel like a bad person for what they did. Looking back on it, so worth it??' I'm thinking no... Instead what if in a million billion years I could say, hey you, I'm glad you are here with me in heaven! I really showed you the love of Christ in that situation by forgiving you and just loving you. And through that you you came to know him better or maybe even came to know him for the first time and then you did the same thing for others! I'm pretty sure I'm gonna be rejoicing with my friend standing next to me, not looking back on who did me wrong when I was on Earth. Or looking back on the other things I deem so important, like fitting into my lovely Limited dress that I bought 1 year ago but now am unable to wear, or the grades I made in med school, or how delicious pizza from Papa John's is (leading to problem of being unable to wear limited dress, but that's off subject), or how exciting it was to go to the national championship game, or which social events I did and did not get an invite to, etc. It just all pales in comparision to the relationships we form and being Christ to those around us and telling others about how awesome He is because that's the kind of thing that we will take with us forever. All I do is go through my day thinking me, me, me. If I sit back and think about it, it's frightening how selfish I am. It's human nature of course, but I really need Jesus' help to overcome that human nature and live like I'm called to live. Because, its waay obvious that I can't do it on my own.